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American Night PARIS JOURNAL So much forgotten already So much forgotten So much to forget Once the idea of purity born, all was lost irrevocably The Black Musician in a house up the hill Nigger in the woodpile Skeleton in the closet Sorry. Didn't mean you. An old man, someone's daughter Arises & sees us still in the room of off-key piano & bad paintings him off to work &new wife arriving (The candle-forests of Notre-Dame) beggar nuns w/ moving smiles, small velvet sacks & cataleptic eyes straying to the gaudy Mosaic calendar Windows I write like this to seize you give me your love, your tired eyes, sad for delivery A small & undiscover'd park -- we ramble And the posters scream safe revolt & the tired walls barely fall, graffiti into dry cement sand an overfed vacuum dust-clock I remember freeways Summer, beside you Ocean -- brother Storms passing electric fires in the night "rain, night, misery -- the back-ends of wagons" Shake it! Wanda, fat stranded swamp Woman We still need you Shake your roly-poly Thighs inside that Southern tent So what. It was really wild She started nude & put on her clothes. An old & cheap hotel w/ bums in the lobby genteel bums of satisfied poverty Across the street, a famous pool-hall where the actors meet former ace -- home of beat musicians beat poets & beat wanderers in the Zen tradition from China to the Subway in 4 easy lifetimes Weeping, he left his pad on orders from police & furnishings hauled away, all records & momentos, & reporters calculating tears & curses for the press: "I hope the Chinese junkies get you" & they will for the poppy rules the world That handsome gentle flower Sweet Billy! Do you remember the snake your lover tender in the tumbled brush-weed sand & cactus I do. And I remember Stars in the shotgun night eating pussy til the mind runs clean Is it rolling, God in the Persian Night? "There's a palace in the canyon where you & I were born Now I'm a lonely Man Let me back into the Garden Blue Shadows of the Canyon I met you & now you're gone & now my dream is gone Let me back into your Garden A man searching for lost Paradise Can seem a fool to those who never sought the other world Where friends do lie & drift Insanely in Their own private gardens" The cunt bloomed & the paper walls Trembled A monster arrived in the mirror To mock the room & its fool alone Give me songs to sing & emerald dreams to dream & I'll give you love unfolding Sun underwater, it was immediately strange & familiar the black boy's from the boat, fins & mask, Nostrils bled liquid crystal blood as they rose to surface Rose & moved strong in their wet world Below was a Kingdom Empire of still sand & yes, party-colored fishes -- they are the last to leave The gay sea I eat you avoiding your wordy bones & spit out pearls The little girl gave little cries of surprise as the club struck her sides I was there By the fire in the Phonebooth I saw them charge & heard the indian war-scream felt the adrenalin of flight-fear the exhilaration of terror sloshed drunk in the flashy battle blood Naked we come & bruised we go nude pastry for the slow soft worms below This is my poem for you Great flowing funky flower'd beast Great perfumed wreck of hell Great good disease & summer plague Great god-damned shit-ass Mother-fucking freak You lie, you cheat, you steal, you kill you drink the Southern Madness swill of greed you die utterly & alone Mud up to your braces Someone new in your knickers & who would that be? You know You know more than you let on Much more than you betray Great slimy angel-whore you've been good to me You really have been swell to me Tell them you came & saw & look'd into my eyes & saw the shadow of the guard receding Thoughts in time & out of season The Hitchhiker stood by the side of the road & levelled his thumb in the calm calculus of reason. The sidewalkers moved faster We joined the current. Suddenly the cops, plastic shields & visors, wielding long thin truncheons like wands, in formation, clearing the street the other way. To get near or stay away. Cafes were taking in tables putting chairs on upside down, pulling the steel playpen safety bars. Whistles as the vans arrive. Moustached soldiers. We leave the scene. Eyes of youth, wary, gleaming. The church. A pastoral scene of guitars, drums, flutes, harps, & lovers. Past Shakespeare & Co., the restaurants w/ elegant patrons, cross street, the small Jazz district (Story Ville) a miniature New Orleans. Negroes in African shirts. A street brass band. "Fare well to my web footed friends" Crowd smiles, jogs, & sings. Move past. San Michel Blvd. The Statue. The Seine. Bonfires of cardboard buzz evilly, down the blvd. Fire-tenders. Smell of smoke. Approach closer nearer. Suddenly screams long warhoops & the crowd runs back. And as we flee, they attack from behind, Pressed against cafe tables. Subway & news Kiosk -- A girl beaten, her cries. Can't hear blows. Rain. (Man w/ bottle) Join me at the demonstration We join groups under trees & rain. Tall public buildings. Join us at the demonstration We must tie all these desperate impressions together Money, the beauty of (currency pale green greasy ornate soft furrowed texture) Skin or leather Enter the slip of the warm womb tide Wet labyrinth kiss digging the wells & riding the lies all holes & poles Walk down a street A drive to the beach Drowning man's flash A town in siege The Desert -- roseate metallic blue & insect green blank mirrors & pools of silver a universe in one body Bibulous compound of muck & mulch milk Tenebrous connections in forest & farm all-swarming disk-like elegance Say No More - That sure was a mouthful. - You said it. you must confront your life which is sneaking up on you like a rapt coiled serpent snail-slime you must confront the inevitable eventually Bloody Bones has got you! hope is just a word when you think in Table Cloths Laughter will not end her funny feeling or assuage our strange desire Children will be born Welcome to the American Night where dogs bite to find the voice the face the fate the fame to be tamed by The Night in a quiet soft luxuriant car Hitchhikers line the Great Highway Cock-pit I am real Take a snapshot of me He is real, shot Reality is what has been concealed from us for so long birth sex death we're alive when we laugh when we can feel the rush & spurt of blood blood is real in its redness the rainbow is real in absence of blood Sudden attack Stabbed & hacked but no pain no death Zone of silence Sudden powered mute strangeness & awareness most awkward to the mind alive w/ love & laughter & memory sweet of kinder times when we spoke & words had soft form by a fire This is my forest a sea of wires. This gaggle of vision is my flame. These trees are men, the engineers. And a tribe of farmers on their Sunday off. Gods -- the directors. Cameras, greek Centaurs on the boom, sliding w/ silent Mobile grace Toward me -- a leaping clown In the great sun's eye. Grand danger there in curved thigh. The avenging finger -- lord. Dancing & thrashing the reptile summer They'll be here long before we're gone Sunning themselves on the marble porch Raging w/in against the slow heat Of an invaded Town The Kingdom is ours Translations of the divine in all languages. The Blues, The records get you high, in armies / on swift channels. The new dreamer will sing to the mind w/ thoughts unclutched by speech. Pirate mind stations. Las Vegas T.V. Midnite showings. electric storm from the front barometer at zero forest blue-eyed dog strangled by snow Night storm flight-drive thru deserts neon capitals, Wilderness echoed & silenced by angels Angel Flight to tobacco farm the roadhouse tomorrow get ready for the Night the rumors on waking a gradual feeling of learning & remembering imagine a heaven in the night-time would one member be missing? The form is an angel of soul from horse to man to boy & back again Music sex & idea are the currents of connection friendship transition conductor of soul from the fat brain of stealth to sunset Work out Welcome to the night Welcome to the deep good dark American Night a man gets time to die his amber waste sloven footsteps of swine in the camps, w/ dark black lumber crooked stars have destiny's number Lord help us Leave the informed sense in our wake you be Christ on this package tour -- Money beats soul -- Last words, last words out & the cool fluttering rotten wind & a child's hand-print on picture window & the guncocked held on the shoulder. & fire in the night waiting, in a darkened house for the cruel insane breed from town to arrive & come poking thru smoke & the fuel & ashes for milk & the evil leer on their faces barking w/ triumph Who will not stop them? The hollow tree, where we three slept & dreamed in the movement of whirling shadows & grass Tired rustle of leaves An oldman stirs the dancers w/ his old dance darkening swift shadows lean on the meat of forest to allow breathing Gently they stir Gently rise The dead are new-born awakening w/ ravaged limbs & wet souls Gently they sigh in rapt funeral amazement Who called these dead to dance? Was it the young woman learning to play the "Ghost Song" on her baby grand Was it the wilderness children? Was it the Ghost-God himself, stuttering, cheering, chatting blindly/ --- I called you up to anoint the earth. I called you to announce sadness falling like burned skin I called you to wish you well, to glory in self like, a new monster & now I call on you to pray: LAMENT FOR THE DEATH OF MY COCK Lament for my cock Sore & crucified I seek to know you acquiring soulful wisdom you can open walls of mystery strip-show How to get death On the morning show T.V. death which the child absorbs death-well mystery which makes me write Slow train The death of my cock gives life Guitar player Ancient wise satyr Sing your ode to my cock caress its lament stiffen & guide us Lost cells The knowledge of cancer To speak to the heart & give the great gift words power trance This stable friend & the beasts of his zoo wild, haired chicks each color connects to create the boat which rocks the race could any hell be more horrible than now & real "I pressed her thigh & death smiled" death, old friend death & my cock are the world I can forgive my injuries in the name of wisdom luxury romance Sentence upon sentence. Words are healing. Words got me the wound & will get me well If you believe it. All join now in lament for the death of my cock a tongue of knowledge in the feathered night boys get crazy in the head & suffer I sacrifice my cock on the altar of silence A WAKE A wake Shake dream from you hair My pretty child, my sweet one Choose the day, & the sign of your day, 1st thing you see. A burnt tree, like a giant primeval bird, a leaf, dry & bitter, crackling tales in its warm waves. Sidewalk gods will do for you. The forest of the neighborhood, The empty lost museum, & The mesa, & the Mt.'s pregnant Monument above the newsstand where the children hide When school ends CURSES & INVOCATIONS Weird bait-headed mongrels I keep expecting one of you to rise large buxom obese queens garden hogs & cunt Veterans quaint cabbage saints Shit horders & individualists drag-strip officials Tight-lipped losers & lustful fuck salesmen My militant dandies all strange order of monsters hot on the trail of the wood vine We welcome you to our Procession THE CROSSROADS Meeting you at your parent's gate We will tell you what to do What you have to do to survive Leave the rotten towns of your father Leave the poisoned wells & bloodstained streets Enter now the sweet forest I WALKED THRU... I walked thru the panther's living room And our summer together ended Too soon Stronger than farther Strangled by night Rest in my sun burst Relax in her secret wilderness This is the sea of doubts which threads harps unwithered & unstrung Its the brother, not the past who turns sunlight into glass It's the valley It's me Testimony from a strange witness The flowering of god-like people in the muted air would seem strange to an intruder of certain size but this is all we have left to guide us Now that He is gone The Wild whore laughs like an ancient spinster Crone, we see you, come again in the mind I lie like fever Dancing your nubile hush willing to be possessed untold stories dare injuns rise Trampled, like red-skins sacred fore-skin Cancer began w/ the knife's cruel blow & the damaged rod has risen again in the East like a star on fire In this dim cave we can go no further Here money is key to smooth age. Horses, givers of guilt. Great bags of gold. I want obedience! We examine this ancient & insane theatre, obscene like luxuriant churches altars. I confess to scarves cool floors stroked curtain The actors are twice-blessed before us. This is too serious & severe. Great mystery! Timeless passion patterned in stillness. Sex for you was thread which binds us even now on this pale planet. To the poet & cover-girl, photo in color, to armies that join, out on a desert, & to Samson & all his generals bound quiet now w/ exotic arch-angels of dusk, in Sumarian & N. African slumbers. The bazaar is crowded as dancers thrive. Snake-wreaths & pleasures. I take you to a low cave called "Calipah". Stand there listening you will hear them tiny shapes just beyond the moon Star-flys, jarts, dismal fronds stirring ape-jaws striving to make the morning mail call Cry owl. Hark to the wood-vine. Suckle-snake crawls, gnawing restive I know you. The one who left to go warning. Wishless now & sullen. Transfer deferred. Steal me a peach from the orange tree grove-keeper She fell. What are you doing w/ your hand on her breast? She fell, mam. Give her to me. Yes, mam. Go tell the master what you've done. They killed him. Later. Going up the stairs handcuffed to his cell. A shot-gun blast Behind the back. I Untrampled footsteps Borderline dreams Occasion for sinners alive if it seems given to wander alone at the shore wanton to whisper I am no more Am as my heart beats live as I can wanton to whisper faraway sands II Now come into my pretty isle My weary westward wanderer Faraway is as it seems & so alone shall shelter Come along unto my sails as weary islands go prosper merry as I went I shall no more the sailor Shall I ho the sailor III Where were you when I needed you? Where indeed but in some sheltered Sturdy heaven; wasted, broken sadly broke & one thin thing to get us thru IV Urchin crawl broke spenders bleeders all brew North stained lot he was lost out on an aircraft high above long awkward brewer's shelters breed this ugly crew our poisoned jet god get us love & get us speed To get us home again love Crippled by people cut by nothing Public housing the incredible damage can be cured V She's my girl friend: I wouldn't tell her Name but I think you already know her Name is Square fire insect marble saffron intro demi-rag in flames it's the same game whether you call it by her real name VI She lives in the city under the sea Prisoner of pirates prisoner of dreams I want to be w/ her want her to see The things I've created sea-shells that bleed Sensitive seeds of impossible warships Dragon-fly hovers & wavers & teases The weeds & his wings are in terrible fury To be alone & watch the dawn It could create a silly song About a girl I used to know She was the star of the lost side show She wasn't me She wasn't you Believe you me Knew what to do & say to a man on the end of his tether "Hay, fine handsome Man, there'll be a change in the weather" So what am I Supposed to do Just sit alone & chew my shoe I need love No more than she & yet no less & no regrets If you can fill me in on my Telephone I'd be a sadder, wiser son of a gun I'll just this about all that I was the mouse who caught the cat I don't intend To give you no points of view I just mean to tell You - I'm alone There are images I need to complete my own reality Time works like acid Stained eyes You see time fly The face changes as the heart beats & breathes We are not constant We are an arrow in flight The sum of the angles of change Her face changed in the car eyes & skin & hair remain the same. But a hundred similar girls succeed each other Dreams are at once fruit & outcry against an atrophy of the senses. Dreaming is no solution We awoke, talking. Telling dreams. an explosion during the night A new siren. Not cop, Fire, New York ambulance or european movie riot news but the strange siren predicting war. She ran to the window. The yellow thing had risen. Fear is a porch where winds slide thru in the North A face at the Window that becomes a leaf An eagle sensing its disaster But soaring gracefully above A rabbit shining in the night Still wet from a strange dream dawn burst scarring the chamber's roof where all things lie I sat w/ her & sipped cold sherry Airport. (Caesura = ante-room to hell) Start again: Should the events of those days... Dream of incest & expulsion from the tribe. Big Sister. It's called the clap. Get on over here, mother-of-pearl. I was a virgin. It lasted 10 seconds. Well don't then. "I can't relax." Roll the leather pants up tightly for the morrow hour. They deserted me, deserted the cause, message or word for another god. "We're kicking you out of our universe!" He ask'd for you. I'll bet he did. Mystery of the dream a woman or girl is trying to appear The Killer -- Mexican, naked except for shoes. People, a family not connected move at hypnotic cross lines out of still frame 2 men, detectives, following searching, sifting thru back & side lit rooms, holding muted counsel. Hats, suits. Brothers. People in a wood, a park. The Killer lurks in his own world. dreams of children & families return to the sub-world to assimilate & guide events New Orleans, sleep, (death's friend, death's sister) cattle, horses faces get rubbery, clown-painted, stupid sly & wise & knowing The mystery of flight To be inside the brain of a bird goal -- the end of a goddess to slide gracefully & knowledgeably into graveland The Big dream vs Violent assassination of Spirit & neck & skull wounded he arrived The dark American Sunset The night like a vast conspiracy to dream, hold court in the swaying sand Tijuana -- the anus of Night a cartoon of civilization Whores are bores in the American Night What will we see in the bowels of the night, in The frosted cave where dreams are made, right before your eyes. Prophecy w/out money. This song must have the sad common strangeness of currency coin of the realm. Bitter embers. Scent of pine smoke Fire-Night, special breeding exercises. An excuse for crime. High School of the Night. Silence of a school at night. L'AMERICA Acid dreams & Spanish Queens L'america (another?, lone?, voice) Asthma child, the fumidor Lamerica Duchess, rabbit, the woods by the road Lamerica Pearl Harbor -- Shot off the road Lamerica Conceived in a beach Town Lamerica Relevance of beach or Lakes Lamerica Sinks, snakes, caves w/ water Florida Homo/-sex/-uality Lamerica Religion & the Family Lamerica Plane crash in the Eastern Woods Virginia Bailing-out over rice-fields Lamerica Guerrilla band inside the town Lamerica Bitter tree of consciousness Lamerica A fast car in the night -- the road Lamerica Progress of The Good Disease Lamerica AMERICA AS BULLRING ARENA Those indians, dreams, & the cosmic spinal bebop in blue. The cosmic horrors. The cosmic heebeejeebies. A combo of brain tissue, blood, shit, sweat sperm & steel, mixed w/ grease & liquid fire, ovaric calendars Magnified on inner Television lust-face, mirrors into Nothing, great silence opens layers of prehistoric chinese monsters. The mouths, the mouths, the cellular MAW. A young Witch from N.Y. is laying novice hexes on my brain-pan, projecting images of embryo development on my psychology. Her terrified wildness disturbs my generals. Baby, now I dig your nightmare visions, & your sadness & your bitchery But, yet, thank you for These spells. It gets my pen moving. The screaming maggot group-grope called life. It's time for the desert wild. Lust capital. Time for an island, get drunk, write & sail. "I saw the Hell of women back there." Women are obsolete "Little Wine -- dig that girl" We placate women w/ food & song w/ sex, marriage, babies You dig kids, Jim Yeah, some of them are nice I like your wife Democracy of souls The guided tour "I am a guide to the labyrinth" city is inside of body made manifest meat organs & electrical power plants The place where, walking down death-row ("You look like you're"), maps -- AMERICUS -- a river-vein we ride along. give form to the passing world Freeways are a drama, a new art form. Signs. Houses. Faces. Loud gabble of Blacks at a bus-stop. car cemetery The abandoned cars The color of car paint, new at night under neon The dead reside in cars -- the old man, filthy, keeper of the graveyard Children, curious, throw stones please like me says the shrew what can I do? I love her. Woman's Voice: The palace of sperm seems warm tonight Man: Umm. gloom gloom doom ruin. Woman: Marble porches. The grand ball room. Silver smiles. Trumpets. Dancing Man I want only you Woman This time come in me like an astronaut Send snakes in my orbit Man We can accomplish miracles when we're together. Woman Alone Man w/ the night to guide us Don't start that panic Love Street parade No one's afraid of the law Someone escaped To the shore Your image of me / my image of you in one-night scenes out on the coast Won't work anymore Soft parade Love Street brigade I bring these few rags back home this evening & lay them at your feet Miserable witness to a day of tragic sadness & disbelief Hope you'll find me wanting Take me to bed Get me drunk (lay me out) The bride-to-be lies in her bed listening to Festivities below He steals her -- in a dream Star fish gluttony What are the word-forms for co(s)mic encounter wedding flesh & mind in one body Tender island Night And a promise of fever & scars that burst at blossom depths & more green silver Us wrestling in the warm temple of summer beside the temple cool inside -- He took my hand. He spoke to me -- Black horse hooves galloping sun mad chariot race burning mad fiery chariot race mad girl & mad boy My feathered son flew too near to the sun. a moving or movement away from a station (weigh station) Sound of lone car & low radio A waving [good-bye to relations] a way from | a waving | a motion amazement a moment amazing a waving (call radio breaks in) Uh, we have a message brak brak He follows a woman into the firmament The solids, sonnets elaborate requisitions for the god-soul ah my bright jewelled town a Widow's band roping sailors & hill-folk together congeal on this flat spire to partake of mineral jets "he's sick" he should be sleeping peaceful by air, a movie of dead nights in a wound, suffer to give out your red-blue lighter's flame w/ calm precision your certainty lives in a match or a mind The huts are free evening cliff-dwellers The trees, losing their variance, die sadly w/ grandeur O soft redness & palest blue like a babie's window This is the hour you rule & invite Ventures, quests, trips to the electric valley down "Mana Man" He gets them into the dark hour By playing singing stories hypnosis wilderness the island Led out of bondage (back there) Viciously peeling fruit Disguised as "Players" command Performance See-thru village old hot forest of cars cruel ambience Leopard snake dance swift lions of doubt crouch in the window & wait for her to come do you have straight jackets for the guests yes we do When the still sea conspires an armor And her sullen and aborted Currents breed tiny monsters, True sailing is dead. Awkward instant And the first animal is jettisoned, Legs furiously pumping Their stiff green gallop, And heads bob up Poise Delicate Pause Consent In mute nostril agony Carefully refined And sealed over The original temptation was to destroy. The Cliffs. The Road. The Walls. Original heroism -- to bluff the elements of fire. To call creatures into the storm. The original heroism was to fall. To ball. The All. Natural man. To participate in the creation. To screw things up. To bring Things into being. The Crossroads where the car hides. Lies. Resides. A meeting-place of Worlds. Where dreams are made. Where anything is possible. Demons lie. The car is steel & chrome. The wood-pile. Top of the pile. The heap. The graveyard. Where metal is reduced to its common mute element. To be reborn. A tale of rebirth in the wilderness. To become chaos & come back. 2 spade chicks, or a king & queen, comment from the balcony. The types of society pass on the boards. Microcosm in a thimble times change, damaged cat's blood rectify in haste cactus furrows, wild thrift catalog of grace The chase bore inward raise'd wet & westward shadows To the strange trust on the south bow Augment pure shouter's drawl & light the candle Night is comin' on & we're outnumbered By the waves, each soldier bristling w/ his trowel To search & claim us Teach our burial The mind works wonders for a spell, the lantern breathes enlightens, then farewell Each shipmate oars to under- stand & eyes unoptic strains to hear: We came from over here, to over there Then old we wonder mindless to degree Most seldom furls in slumber, burns begins a century Planes are groaning mothers In our feeble insect wars. Nylon condoms stream behind her Trojan Warriors on their dreadful writhing flight. Bailed out, sucked from her metal belly, one thin wire is left to prophecy return, jump freely. Swallowing air in the brief canal. The ground leaps up like dogs to snap, the field, & rolling pain. Swamps, rice fields, danger. Gunned down, over ten of them struggling w/ the wet placenta While some land back in oceans. Skin-divers float, free-float, in the uterus. The sea is a Vagina which may be penetrated at any point. Ah, the rule was war, as friendship faltered. Families quarrelled, as usual, in their chambers. The race suffered. We traveled. We left home & beauty. Ah, into these ship, again, we hastened. The creation of power is slow-wasted. Borrowed fillings. Brace for the brine. Heaven kept, hour dated. Winds fermented madness & kept parlour rife & rancid. Crews took leave of sour concubines & habits. The sea is no place for a lady. Lads larked & frolicked, pulvering waves they would seek into the deep. Ark! Ark! Cathay or Venice. Worlds beyond, & Worlds after. This story has no moral. Trust not sleep or sorrow. The fife-man croons the lull to wake & Brings strong soldiers to a windy beach India ink, ink of India There are no more rich colors Black neon, blocks away, Escapes back smooth in the desert sea. There's an appearance of sweat on Italian silk skin. Slap the rude face, & twist into the doorway. Then reappear, w/ drums & glass in jewels of laughter as one called "The Gladiator," Hair claimed by flame of fire (Insulting to be back. The dreaded, dismal day.) Jail is a pussy coil, dry as meat, dog-faced, clever. (Handsome dog & the shot gun eye.) We leap the wall, dog & I, To hang choking on fence collar chain. Mate follows leap to suffer String-throat, hollow, madness cry. (In this "hollow" we were born.) Mexican Khaki, the green womb. Distrust all lovely words like green & womb. (Obey the father. Run.) Escape back into the landscape, dry as meat, dusty, narrow. Dog licks shit Mexican girl whore sucks my prick. (Open windows on the town. Open pores on foreign air.) The car rasps quiet. Motor destroys itself on rotten fuel. The pump is ill. The hose has a steel nozzle. Flesh of her rolls flesh away in waves, The waters part dry scalps beneath the hair nude-white & very rare And when she exits bed, the barge To bathe in ocean's tile & under surgeon's glare, blinking I bask on the red floor of a Red Sea Crime begins in the bed, the home, It's a low tide that talks to rocks, & leaves rust in its wake, & dry things crackling. I fucked the dregs of the ruins of an empire I fucked the dust and the horrible queen I fucked the chick at the gates of the Maya I fucked all your women & treated the same w/ respect for your warriors returned from the Kingdom fucked w/ the Negroes in cabs of the drivers Fucked little infants of North Indo-China Branded w/ Napalm & screaming in pain pencilled heaven my regards no when to stop There's someone at the door. A rapist rushes in. No pain. No death. It's us, over & over again. We're coming in. All right, search the place. You won't find anything. Seeing all perspectives at once. When everything freezes & kind of turns back in on itself. feast green beast, spurred on by sex, seasoned in silence, w/held from slumber, silent in the deep pale night beast languid a cool a cunt a forest flower awoken now breathe utter a word of reproach for fair swifty flyers agon of night The dream car the outlaw star now he sits reclines in a terrible mansion made more monstrous by the dark stroke of slumber The car is purple foil beast dead in the night. Neon is its sign his rich home soft luxuriant car death gave grace shaken to the soil He stood in a strange centre by the meeting pt. of worlds This crossroads of desert flies the corpse of sand batteries the ignition What did happen! He screams at camera Here she lie bleeding, blue wounds just to tell us in our floppy hats it's over. The cops are rubber animals w/ surgeons cold pride, w/out their glamour. The ambulance attendants are sudden amateurs, good-natured in this foreign chore. The cliffs no longer contain faces. "I know what jail is like" & "I know about time." So we played the carnival. Car. Carne. Feast of meat. Celebration of blood. O lucky ones who enjoy the dumb show The reptile farm. The snake farm. Woman & Monkey. The sign. The sign. Search for the Tree. The place. The sink Big Dismal Goes in 2 ways. Spirit & Meat. (sex) You cannot join what can't be joined You cannot travel 2 roads (He road off in all directions) Hand Grenade Very brave all the rage to tempt loneliness upon Front page gold head lines w/ Ali Khan & all the rest Onassis, Blues BB Albert Collins gin & tonic give him a high martin i get him down the prancing clown will bring the empire swooping swirling Tunneling Thundering Tumbling hell, O, down (That's as down as I can get right now, on a Mainstream, & I am pretty high, far gone) Thank god I have the Sweet warm promise of a woman there to keep me warm So this is where my fine warm poetry (pottery) has got me, led me back to Madness & the men who made me You think I don't know that! your poetry is so obsessed I like my madmen cold The abandoned Hotel flowers dirt on its walls The labyrinth of bowels Moves slowly in grim waste Children play here, wait & sway here, tiring to her swoon arched summer and languid by the bow Sits Esther, made up like a queen, port in a storm, striking fire-bells in her drawers, chalking the black street w/ wild lies O how could this be done to me great dancer's Witness God, you are a satyr in disguise Thus cruelly & uselessly to Rend my life awry I'll lie here stolen, in cold wind in the road, until peace freezes over, & hallows me. Rude ghost bastard. Ah! Who comes now. an afternoon of summer dread I'm afraid to meet all the rest of my brothers in distress Couldn't we get in one big Movie Blow it all on one Grand Floozie & end it all YAH YEAH an autograph sends respects to her Twin everyone wants a Christ & no one will give it to him Mohammed, the enchanter Keeper of Harems Buddha, inkindergardened under his tree, w/ not a moon-glow mindless Thought for you & me (This does not mean I want or wish to be prey to people God forbid) & look at the steeple a mindless wit am I dickless, looking at the sky a hole in the clouds where a mind hides Pagodas -- temples in child's raw hope animal in a tunnel defined by the light around him These evil subsidies these shrouds surround If it's no problem, why mention it. Everything spoken means that, it's opposite, & everything else. I'm alive, I'm dying. The end of the rainbow put all my screaming phantasies into one giant Box-trap image of self-image-propagation image of elation Ungulation limit 1st tree image of Utopia a slaughter of phantoms innocent -- guilty The Human World bounded by words & dust sweet soft & velvet dust medium trust Heaven or Hell the circus of your actions To Play (chance is god here) at Carnival assuage the guilt The deep fear The separate loneliness open Sinygog open sesame The Party of new connections mind made free Love cannot save you from your own fate Art cannot soothe Words cannot tame The Night Scour the mind w/ diamond brushes. Cleanse into Mandalas. Memory keeps us wicked & warm. The Time temple. Who'll go 1st? Cloaked figures huddled by walls. A head moves clocklike slowly. I'm coming. Wait for me. Lessons on becoming a revolutionary an actor (prophet!) or a poet There's still good friends to assist & relieve you Mercenary whim for her or for him First become a Visionary-Scientist radiocal biochemical aviationary sky-diver Then contact your local pub- lic accountant (he'll tell you how to spread the seeds of doubt) Maids are bickering in the hall The day is warm Last night's perfume I lie alone in this cool room My mind is calm & swirling like the marble pages of an old book I'm a cold clean skeleton scarecrow on a hill in April Wind eases the arches of my boney Kingdom Wind whistles thru my mind & soul My life is an open book or a T.V. confession I wish a storm would come & blow this shit away. Or a bomb to burn the Town & scour the sea. I wish clean death would come to me. If only I could feel The sound of the sparrows & feel child hood pulling me back again If only I could feel me pulling back again & feel embraced by reality again I would die Gladly die It has been said that on birth we are trying to find a proper womb for the growth of our Buddha nature, & that on dying we find a womb in the tomb of the earth. This is my father's greatest fear. It shouldn't be. Instead, he should be trying to find me a better tomb. The end of the dream will be when it matters all things lie Buddha will forgive me Buddha will -- The cycle begins anew a luring lulling sick-sad maddening haunting ego-familiar strain calls the wayward wanderer home again a music mosaic made of all image tune preceding The whistle or warm woman's cry that calls the child home from play THE SCREEN IS BLACK. We hear a young man's voice in casual conversation with friends. No, this guy told me you can go down across the border and buy a girl and bring her back and that's what I'm goin' to do, I'm gonna go down there and buy one of them and bring her back and marry her. I am. An older woman's voice Billy, are you completely crazy? We hear the good-natured laughter of the woman, a man and another friend as Billy's insistent voice rises through saying: BILLY No, it's true. Really. This guy told me. It's true. I'm really gonna do it. The film changes to COLOR. A couple sit at a small table in a simulated border town nightclub. It is a CLOSE shot, reminding us possibly of Picasso's "Absinthe Drinkers." The atmosphere is suggested by peripheral sounds such as bois- terous young voices, curses in a foreign language, the tin- kling of glasses and music from a small rock band. Perhaps a dancer is visible in the background. Perhaps topless. An anonymous waitress could enter the frame and leave, serving drinks. The HERO is drunk and he's trying to persuade an attractive Mexican girl, a waitress in the bar, a whore, to cross the border and marry him. The girl tolerates him. She is work- ing, hustling drinks, and has to listen but also she likes him. In some way, he interests her. BILLY I bet only reason you won't come with me is because I ain't got any money. Well, listen. I'm tellin' you. I'm gonna go back up there and get me some money, lots of it, maybe even ten thousand. And then I'm comin' back for you. I'm comin' back. He weaves offscreen, determined, drunk, camera hold on girl, smiling wistfully and ironically after him. Then she grabs another young American and pulls him down beside her. THE GIRL Hey, man, you want to buy me a drink? TITLE THE HITCHHIKER (An American Pastoral) Film changes to BLACK and WHITE. It is dawn on the American desert; it's cold, and he stands hunched in his jacket, by the side of the highway. The sun is rising. We hold on him as a few cars go by at long intervals. We hear the car coming, watch his eyes watching, he sticks his thumb out. CUT TO profile shot, as a car swishes by. The third car stops and he runs, not too energetically and get inside. INTERIOR car. Middle-aged man in a business suit. He asks the hitchhiker where he is going. BILLY (mumbling) L.A. He is obviously reluctant to do any talking. THE DRIVER I can take you as far as Amarillo and then you'll have to go on from there. BILLY (No reply. No recognition.) DRIVER What are you going to do when you get to L.A.? Have you got a job lined up? BILLY (No answer. He is beginning to nod.) The man drives on. We see glimpses of the American land- scape out the window of the car. The man glances sideways occasionally at Billy who is sleeping. CLOSE UP of the man's right hand moving snake-like to- wards the hiker's left leg. He hesitates and then touches it above the knee. Immediately, a .38 revolver appears from Billy jacket and points at the driver. BILLY Pull over. Profile of car, left side, extremely long shot. We hear a shot. The hitchhiker comes around the rear of the car, opens the door, and pulls the driver toward camera, his corpse that is, to the gully, and, after stripping his wallet of all the cash, gets into the car and drives away. The kid is standing beside the car with his thumb out. The hood is raised. The engine has failed. A State Patrolman (we learn this from his uniform, western hat, and badge) stops in his own unmarked car. Billy gets in the car. The sheriff is friendly. He talks a lot. He tells Billy that he's just getting back home after delivering two lunatics from his local jail to the state asylum. SHERIFF I had to put them both in straight- jackets and throw them in the back of the wagon. I had to. They were totally uninhibited. I mean, if I let 'em loose, they just start jerking off and playing with each other, so I had to keep them tied up. The killer is trying to stay awake. He's strung out on ben- nies, and also just plain exhausted, and he's fighting to fol- low the man's conversation. The sheriff rambles on. Billy is in that weird state between what's being said in reality and what he hears in his dream. The sheriff asks a question. He an- swers and then jerks up suddenly to realize that he's been inventing his own dialogue inside his head. Finally, he can take it no longer. He pulls the gun out and orders the sheriff to pull over to the side of the road. Then he forces him to unlock the trunk, orders him inside and slams the lid. INTERIOR of car. The hitchhiker is driving on. As the car slows down for an upgrade, the trunk flies open and the sheriff tumbles out into the dust. Billy sees it in the rearview mirror. He slams on the brakes, jumps out of the car and runs back to the spot. From off in the desert, we see the sheriff racing insanely toward the camera. He suddenly leaps and throws himself flat on the ground behind a sand dune, next to the camera. From this point of view, the sheriff crouched and breathing in heavy gasps, we watch the kid stand on the side of the road, stare out into the desert and finally get back into the car and drive away. Billy is hitchhiking again. Obviously, he has ditched the sheriff's car somewhere along the way. A car pulls over. There is a young man driving and in the back seat are his wife and two small children, a boy and a girl. The driver is friendly, tells him he used to hitchhike a lot himself and volunteers the information that he has just returned home from two years in Viet Nam, where he was a pilot. Billy pulls out the gun and lets them know immediately that he wants them to take him anywhere he wants to go. Other- wise, he'll kill them. It is NIGHT. They pull into a gas station. Billy is hungry, so are the kids. So he goes with the ex-aviator into a small country store that's part of the station. He warns the family to keep quiet or he'll kill everyone. INSIDE the country store. A seedy old man behind the counter. They ask him for a bunch of ham sandwiches. In close-up, we watch him slice the meat, the knife hesitating minutely, deciding on the thickness of each slice. The two men stand there watching him. Suddenly, the husband wheels around and gets a grip on the hitchhiker from behind. They whirl madly around the store, the father screaming for the proprietor to call the police. THE MAN Stop him! He's got a gun!! He's gonna kill us!!! Help me!!!! Billy somehow manages to get his gun out and forces the man to the car. The store owner stares after him, mouth agape, then picks up the receiver to call the police. MORNING. A young boy finds the car, pulled off on a side road, splattered with blood. He opens the door and sees the little girl's baby doll, the naked, flesh-colored rubber kind, and in close-up, we see blood on it. The EXTERIOR of a run-down shack in the country. We hear the sounds from inside. INTERIOR of shack. Televi- sion and radio and newspaper reporters, including an attrac- tive woman with a notebook, are interviewing the killer's father. He's a very old man, an alcoholic, who is slightly pleased to be thrust suddenly into the spotlight, but who treats the situation with a grave sense of public image and self-irony. THE FATHER He was always a pretty strange boy, specially after his mother passed away. Then he got real quiet. He didn't have many friends. Just his brothers and sisters. GIRL REPORTER Mr. Cooke, is there anything you'd like to tell your son? FATHER Yes, there is. Billy, if you can hear me, son, please turn yourself in. Cause what you're doin', it just ain't right. You're not doin' right, son. And you know it. During this appeal, the camera has moved slowly into a CLOSE-UP of the old man's face. INTERIOR. Car. Night. Rain. A car radio. The light glows yellow in the dark car. The radio is playing a country gospel hour. A revival meeting. The preacher and his flock. As Billy listens, we flash back into his past, over the rain and wind- shield wipers. We see an old man and a young boy in the woods. The man is Billy's father and the boy is Billy himself at about age seven or eight. The father teaches his son how to shoot a gun. He tell him to aim at a rabbit. THE FATHER Don't be afraid, son. Don't be afraid. Just squeeze one off. We see a rabbit pinioned in a rifle's telescopic sight. A small town high school, 3:30, bell rings, school is out. The kids gush from the building and flow like a human stream to the favorite drive-in restaurant. INTERIOR of car. Billy is eating a cheeseburger and Coke. Through his windows he watches the movements of one of the carhops. She is wearing slacks and with him we watch her ass and thighs. When she comes to collect, he asks her to come for a ride with him. We hear him say this but the ensuing dialogue is shown in pantomime. The actual voices are drowned out by the sounds of radios, kids talking. They are driving up a mountain road. The Rolling Stones' "I Can't Get No Satisfaction" comes on the radio. Billy sings along with the record with wild abandon and squirms in his seat like a toad. The car is parked on a rocky view overlooking the ocean. He gets out of the car and dances around it, acting crazy, and howling like an Indian. He ducks up and down, appearing and reappearing in different windows. She laughs at his clowning. The couple are in the back seat, vaguely we see their move- ments, hear them whispering, laughing, talking. CUT TO outside of car. They get out of the back of the car, hair and clothes disarranged and move side by side into a rough ter- rain behind some rocks. Camera holds on the rocks. A pri- meval rock formation. At a rhythm that is peculiarly excruciating, we hear three gunshots. A rest room in an LA service station. EXTERIOR. Billy enters rest room. INTERIOR rest room. Billy shaves with soap in rest room mirror, runs his wet hands through his hair. EXTERIOR, downtown LA. Camera follows him from a car, as he wanders through the downtown crowds of Broad- way and Main Street. Many times he is lost to our view. We see him in an arcade, where he plays a pinball machine. CLOSE-UP of pinball game in progress. Billy in photo booth. Flash of the lights. CLOSE-UP of four automatic photos: flash flash flash flash. Four faces of Billy. Billy in downtown hamburger stand. He is eating, seen from behind, Gun enters frame left. He turns and sees it, stares back blankly. CUT TO EXTERIOR, street. In hand-held confused close- up sequence, we see him dragged and shoved into the back seat of a car (police car). He is kicked and beaten. During the struggle, we hear many men's voices, gloating righteous ex- clamations. MEN So you're the little bastard that killed all those people! (Kick) You had a good time, didn't you? (Kick) You really killed 'em, didn't you? Hands cuffed behind his back, he looks up with a confused expression and says: BILLY But I'm a good boy. The men laugh. Film switches to COLOR. A montage of extant photo- graphs representing death. The body of Che Guevara, a northern Renaissance Dutch crucifixion, bullfight, slaugh- terhouse, mandalas and into abstraction. A nature film of a mongoose killing a cobra, a black dog runs free on the beach. FADE INTO BLACKNESS. EXTERIOR night. On the steps of City Hall of Justice we see the hitchhiker descend dreamlike in slow motion, move languorously across a deserted city square toward the camera until he covers the lens and seems to pass through it. Seen now from behind, as he moves away from lens, he enters a desert outskirt region where he finds an automobile graveyard. He is wandering in Eternity. In the junkyard, three people squat around a small fire. They're cooking po- tatoes in the coals, an older man named DOC pokes the fire with a stick. There is an older woman, funky, glamorous, and the third person is a young boy, a mute, of indeterminate age. He is slightly made up with white makeup. They are hoboes in Eternity and are not surprised to see him. He nears the fire. DOC Well, how ya doin', kid? I see you did it again. Ya hungry? There's some food here if ya want it. Billy doesn't speak. He stares at the moon. The woman has kept her head down, her hair covering her face. DOC Billy's back. Blue Lady, didja hear me? I said Billy's back. She looks up for the first time. BLUE LADY Hi, Billy. BILLY Hello, Blue Lady. He looks at the boy. Hiya, Clown Boy. CLOWN BOY claps his hands and nods, his face contorted grotesquely in greeting. They sit for a while like this, and stare at the fire. They eat the potatoes. Then Doc rises and says: DOC The sun's gonna be up in a while. I guess we'd better move on. Slowly, one by one, the other two rise. Doc puts out the fire with dirt and says: DOC Ya comin' with us, Billy? BILLY (thinking hard) I don't know, Doc, I just don't know. Doc smiles. DOC Well, we'll see ya later, kid. The rest of the gang will be real glad to see ya. They sure will. Well... Doc, Clown Boy and the Blue Lady start moving toward the rising sun into the mountain desert. Every now and then they turn and wave, Clown Boy leaping up and down madly and waving good-bye. As they slowly disappear, camera changes focus to Billy, the hitchhiker, the kid, the killer, hunkered over the dead smol- dering fire. THE END |
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